Living Beyond Expectations

    Last year was really tough. I felt like I was living under a cloud of doubt, weighed down by expectations I never asked for. Being the eldest child always carried a certain pressure, but somewhere along the way, people started seeing me as the "angry one"—the one who was always stressed, always overwhelmed. It's as if no matter what I did, that was the role I played in everyone's eyes around me. They saw my frustration but didn't see the layers beneath it: tiredness, trying to live up to standards that I never set for myself. I felt like I was being misunderstood, put into a box, and that no matter how much I tried to explain it, no one really heard me. It was not anger I clung to but the heaviness of having always been held to a high expectation of being strong, perfect, and composed at all times.

    But something changed inside of me this year. I want to change—not for people to start seeing me as different but to see myself differently. I want to get better academically, not just to earn good grades, but to actually be proud of what I'm learning and what I'm doing. I want to be nicer to my body, take care of myself, because for too long I have neglected that part of me. And mentally—mentally, I need to break free from the feeling of doubt, from the anxiety and the constant pressure. I need to be peaceful with myself. I don't want to define myself by anger or expectations. I want to be defined by the strength I know I have inside, by the quiet moments of progress that only I can recognize, and by the joy of knowing I’m growing into someone I can genuinely love and be proud of.

This year, I expect myself to embrace change, not just small, temporary adjustments but real, significant ones. I want to wake up every morning and feel like I am one step closer to becoming the person I have always imagined. I expect myself to be even patient and forgive myself for my mistakes, and to keep trying no matter what comes my way. I want to challenge myself academically, celebrate even the smallest victories along the way. Physically, I expect to become stronger, healthier, and more in tune with what my body needs. I expect to be able to create space for peace, letting go of the burden of needing to be perfect and allowing myself to grow at my own pace.

    This year will be different. I am no longer going to let other people define who I am. I’m stepping into this year with hope, determination, and a promise to myself that I will continue to grow, not for anyone else, but for me.

    And you know what? I’m ready. Ready to embrace the person I’m becoming, and finally, ready to be truly happy.

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